Seth Caro, the famously volatile Top Chef Just Desserts contestant who dropped out of season one back in 2010 after suffering an anxiety attack during filming, says there was more to his departure from the show than a meltdown over having to use Breyer’s ice cream instead of making his own. He told the New York Post that the show’s producers put him through what amounts to psychological torture:

I like to think regular Top Chef is better than this, but I’m not 100%. I feel bad for laughing at the “Red Hots are for my mommy” line now.